Creating My (Unconventional) Dream Life

Chantelle
August 27, 2019
Healing / Manifesting / Personal Development / Unconventional Living

When I was younger, I was always asked what I wanted to be when I was growing up. I always answered something different every time I was asked because what five year old knows what they want to do to support themselves as an adult? I feel it's the same now, except I'm now thirty and it isn't adorable anymore to change my mind every year with my interests. Regardless of what hobby I'm learning that year, my dreams have always been unconventional. I'm now accepting the fact that this means I'm not going to live a conventional life. I battled the thought of doing the norm. Respectively, I tried college a few times, and really pushed myself to be the 9-5 "cubicle normy" that was expected of me. I found out after years of depression and crippling anxiety that wasn't what I wanted for myself. I tried hard to be that person, to the point where it almost killed me, and have slowly been peeling off the layers of…

Happy Solstice – Shortest Day Of The Year

Chantelle
December 21, 2018
Astrology / Astronomy / Gratitude / Healing

This year, on the winter solstice, the shortest day of the year, we are blessed with not only the sight of a full moon but also a meteor shower! The full moon is technically tomorrow on the 22nd, but it will be visible to the human eye tonight. While you're staring at the moon, don't forget to search the sky for "falling stars" because it's probably actually a meteor. That's because tonight starts the annual Ursids Meteor Shower and during peak times you could see up to 10 "shooting stars" an hour! This triple whammy of a night is a great night to charge your crystals. I have been looking forward to this night for a multitude of reasons. From now on until June 21, 2019, our days will continuously get longer. It will be lighter longer and get warmer throughout the days. The warmer weather is on its way, and we only have to make it through a couple more months of colder weather before spring shows its face.…

At Home and Healing (Pancreatitis Series #4)

Chantelle
November 23, 2018
Healing / Healthy Living / Uncategorized / Weight Loss

Welcome to the fourth and final part of my pancreatitis series. Finally, I’m at home and healing. I know this part took quite a while to be released. It’s almost as if I didn’t know where to end it because the healing process has been anything but quick. Whenever I thought things would get better, some curveball would come at me. Some unforeseen complication would disrupt my healing process. If you’re new to my blog, welcome, but you’re going to want to read Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3 of this series before continuing on with this post. (Also, note that this is not my normal blogging style. These posts are also significantly longer than my norm.) Because a lot of the days at home healing was a lot of doing nothing, nodding out of high doses of pain medication, I am going to only elaborate days of importance. October 23, 2018 (TUESDAY) I woke up this morning at 281 lbs, and the realization of a 16-pound weight loss…

Transferred To The Hospital (Pancreatitis Series #2)

Chantelle
November 3, 2018
Healing / Healthy Living / Journaling / Mental Health

In my last blog, I explained the events that lead up to me being in the ER and being transferred to another hospital to get emergency gallbladder removal surgery. This is a continuation of that, so if you haven't read the first part yet, start HERE. October 6, 2018 (SATURDAY still): Officially At Hotel Riverbend I was getting settled into my new room around 7:30 pm. It was nice, and when I say nice, I mean it was nicer than a lot of hotels I’ve stayed in. I had my own bathroom and on-call room service. It was very nice. Not to mention, I was on the 8th floor of a building that looked over the Willamette River and the flowing hills of Springfield, OR. It was beautiful. Around 9 p.m. I was getting antsy. Why would they tell me I need emergency surgery around 2 p.m. and at 9 p.m. I’m still waiting, sitting around watching HGTV in a motorized bed? When the next CNA comes in to…

My First Trip To the Emergency Room (Pancreatitis Series #1)

Chantelle
October 28, 2018
Healthy Living / Journaling / Mental Health

The last few weeks have been such a blur and I have been trying really hard to piece together the fragments of memories I have of this time frame that I spent in the suite at Riverbend Peace Health. It all started with my trip to the Emergency Room. To clarify my absence, I was in the hospital with pancreatitis the last 2+ weeks. I have never felt pain like that before. In fact, one of my many nurses during my stay told me that the pain I was feeling at the time was comparable to a drug-free childbirth. She came to this conclusion by the amount of Dilaudid they had to give me to get ahead of the pain. Because my memory of what happened was so bad, during the final days there I went through text messages I had sent to family members and coworkers and sat down with nurses that were in my care, in order to get some sort of timeline together. I was on so…